Parboiled Poetry

Irritable (Stuck)

by Tina

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(Appropriate. That sounds like a prison ID)

Irritable (Stuck)

I want to move forward

But I feel as if I’m sliding backwards

It’s like trying to hold on with both hands, but losing grip with one.

I want to believe boldly

And trust that God’s timing is perfect

But the tears defy my resolve and push

It’s like a battle with my own will and nothing about this is fun.

My mind and my mood won’t get on the same page

My goals and my focus don’t want center stage 

And I’m desperately trying to make willpower all the rage 

But something is working against me and it’s causing me pain. 

If it pushes me any harder I might go insane… 

On the other hand… 🤔

I might get fiesty and punch it in the face!

(Okay, that cheered me up…. At least momentarily.)

Tina 

May 29, 2022

Settle Down Sister

The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.”. 

Exodus 14:14

Remember the Hope of Heaven 🙌 🙌 🙌 🙌

Remember the Love of Jesus ✝️ ✝️ ✝️ ✝️

She’s not back from Spring Break quite yet. ⏳

Clearly I need to spend more time with the Lord. 🙏

But I haven’t vanished for good. 🔙🔜

Stay tight. 👊❤🤗

–Tina

18 thoughts on “Irritable (Stuck)”

  1. Tina, it’s wonderful to read one of your posts, even if you’re not truly back yet. Your words definitely resonated with me. I recently have had some similar battles. But one amazing thing is that I felt the grace of the Lord in those moments. He understood my emotions and my struggles. And He understands yours too. What a loving Lord we have. I pray that we keep clinging to Jesus. He will never leave us nor forsake us. Sending hugs your way 🤗🦋

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    1. Thank you so much Bridget. He does show us the most amazing grace. Yes, that’s a wonderful prayer. Thank you. And may we grow in the joy of our Lord. ❤🤗

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  3. Maybe you’re right where you need to be, Tina. Me thinks you are being to hard on yourself. 😊“Everything God made has a crack. That’s how the light gets in.”
    Please forgive my sermonizing; it’s just easy to spot someone being too hard on themselves—it’s my part time job. 😉

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  5. Tina, I’ve kept you in my prayers. Stay tight. 🐝safe 🐝strong 🐝fiesty.
    May let the Lord turn His face toward you and give you peace. 🙏🙏
    Love and Peace. 💕💐🌹🌺

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  7. The poem just described my situation so aptly. The words ” trapped, stuck, confused” come up so often in my prayers. Good friends encouraged me to stop trying to hold on desperately to what I once had or want which is causing me frustration. Instead I should find solace in God and let him redirect me and arrange things as he deems fit.
    Been a minute too. I miss you❤️

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    1. That is good advice. Really, the advice depends on the situation. But if it’s something that you know you need to let go of. Then you and God will work that out together. Sometimes the situation might call for perseverance, endurance and patience. That’s something that the Lord can help sort out as well. Finding solace in God is always the right advice no matter the situation or circumstances, as well as seeking His guidance, whether it’s redirection or the next step. Praying for you little sister. I miss you too. ❤

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  8. Glad to read a post from you Tina.. I can relate to these words. I’ve been facing a battlefield of my own…ptsd from childhood trauma, it’s so harsh!! Let’s lift one another up in prayer Tina!!! God can get us through!!!!

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