This isn’t what I was going to post today. I did it again. I really have to learn not to speak so soon (sigh), but the Lord will get through to me eventually.
Speaking of eventually…
I was definitely in a good mood on Sunday. It’s pretty clear that I’m in good spirits when my cheekiness makes an appearance. So I’d said to Andrew, “Hey, you didn’t give me a kiss.” He responded with, “I was gonna. I was comin’ around.” (Around my chair.) So I couldn’t resist saying, “Yeah, you come around–eventually.” I received a wide-eyed look for that one which only made me laugh more.
What goes around comes around. He got me back while we were listening to our sermon. When the Pastor said something about thriving where you’ve been planted Andrew gave me a VERY smug smile. We give each other a hard time, but it’s mostly in a playful way.
I have to clarify something; I was NOT running away from blogging! I didn’t even want to take a break. I wasn’t being like Jonah, I was being like Abraham by taking my blog up the mountain... er, so to speak. After testing Abraham, God stopped him. He stopped me too. Andrew was right about me coming back to my blog.
He was also right when he said that if I don’t let it flow it flows out my eyes, but this is more than simply continuing to write; I second guess everything that I share. I haven’t been trusting the Holy Spirit to lead me. This is one of the things that keeps causing me to shed some tears. I won’t “Be still” (or let go) and trust God.
Because things have been difficult for an extended period of time my focus shifted. I started looking to find my joy and peace in other things: friendship, fellowship and the beautiful things around me. There’s nothing wrong with enjoying these lovely things (Jesus created them for us to enjoy.), but when they take the place of God they become idols. We worship the creation over the Creator. This is sin.
It’s funny (not haha funny), in trying to find balance I managed to tip the scale the other way, becoming even more imbalanced. Apparently this is what happens when we try to do things in our own strength. I have to trust God for everything.
God tests us to shows us our strength and weakness. I do respect my heavenly Father. I want to be obedient to Him, but my weakness has been the distance between us. However, I do believe that we can thrive in any growing condition if we will seek His face (or His presence) and His help. So this is what I’m going to pursue.
“Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit. Then I will teach transgressors your ways, and sinners will return to you.”Psalm 51:12-13
“But the angel of the Lord called out to him from heaven, “Abraham! Abraham!” “Here I am,” he replied. “Do not lay a hand on the boy,” he said. “Do not do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son.”Genesis 22:11-12
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