Generally I like to learn. However, depression is one of those lessons you wish you could skip.
I’m not talking about feeling down or discouraged. I’m talking about loss of interest and apathy, low mood and motivation. It can leave you feeling joyless, grey and sometimes irritable.
I once read a post here on WordPress accusing people of using depression as an excuse for laziness. I imagine this person has never experienced depression. It’s actually a very serious illness. Depending on the severity, it has the potential to lead to suicidal thoughts, self harm, or harming others. It can create difficulties simply getting out of bed and taking care of yourself. On the surface it may look like laziness, but it isn’t a choice. It’s a struggle.
Depression has a way of causing you to focus more on your faults than your victories. You can forget things, like when life felt good. It can fool you into believing that all you’ve ever experienced is pain and struggle.
Depression is a battle that leaves you feeling so far from the person you remember yourself to be. It wears you down and drains you.
As I wait for antidepressants to hopefully help, some days I think I’ll never feel like myself again. I’m trying to learn to deflect those lies. I keep pushing myself to maintain healthy daily routines. Some days I don’t accomplish much more than the basics. However, I have to keep counting my victories, leaning on the Lord and those who care for me. Most of all I need to focus on the hope we have in Jesus and resting in His care.
He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”Psalm 46:10
When we put on the full armour of God, we are warriors.
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