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Here I sit again
Not wanting to join in
Scrolling through posts
Words from good hosts
Intentions of comfort, peace and encouragement
But I’m too weary to read
Ignoring their good deeds
Convinced their words won’t bring me peace
Fraught with disbelief
Could anything life-giving happen to me?
Awash in my own trials
Swallowed whole and bankrupt of smiles
When will I turn to my God
Why won’t I settle my strife?
Estranged from the Saviour I knew
Failing to praise through the blues
Stubborn through and through…
Here I sit again
Longing to begin again
Not knowing where to start
How do I find the way to His heart?
Scrolling through my troubled mind
Numb by the passing of time
Sidetracked by a challenging life
Muddled by the lows and plight
Waiting for the morning that comes after the night.
Lord, I can’t reach for your hand
I don’t know why, but I’m sinking on sand
I’m moving forward, but far from your touch
Missing the glory and grace of your love
Still too tired to drink in your words
Too unworthy to ask, not sure I’ll be heard
I know that your love isn’t earned
But I just can’t make sense of the state of my world.
Tina
January 3, 2023
When We feel far from God: Seek Him Continually
Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I am weak;
O Lord, heal me, for my bones are troubled.
My soul also is greatly troubled;
But You, O Lord—how long?
Psalm 6:2-3 (New King James Version
How long, O Lord, will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I take counsel in my soul and have sorrow in my heart all the day?”
Psalm 13:1–2 (ESV)
Wait
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him;
fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way,
over the man who carries out evil devices!
Psalm 37:7 (ESV)
Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage;
wait for the Lord!
Psalm 27:14 (ESV)
I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in him.
Psalm 40:1-3 (NIV)
Verses we’re retrieved through John Piper’s What to do When God Feels Distant.
https://www.desiringgod.org/interviews/what-to-do-when-god-feels-distant
His book sounds interesting too:
https://www.desiringgod.org/books/when-i-dont-desire-god
Pippi's Poetry 
Sweet daughter how are you?
Good to see you post again 🙂
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I am struggling, stressed, worn and too often down. I’m trying to find time to get closer to Jesus, but college life is leaving little time with my heavy work load. I can’t spend near enough time with God to truly lift me up. It’s like the waves keep crashing in.
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Praying for you
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Thank you so much, dad. ❤
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Love you 🙂
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I’m not sure if this beautiful prayer is a spirit-filled psalm, or your own passionate and spirit-filled prayer.
Either way, He is Emmanuel. He sees you, hears you and not only walks beside you, but dwells in your very own heart! And He is delighted that you pour out your heart like water unto Him and He holds you and longs for you to let go and trust Him; rest.
xx
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Thank you so much, Dawn. Often I feel like my poetry is part prayer. When I can’t pray it pours out in poetry much easier.
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❤
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Lord, you know and love Tina. Meet her where she is at. May she feel your grace and strength pour into her. May she feel your presence with her. Lift her up and set her feet upon solid ground. The heaviness that she feels within, Lord may you break through and remove it for there to be no room other than the Joy of your presence.
Sending love and prayers Tina 💙
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Thank you so much, Manu. 💙
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Tina, I hope you are feeling closer to God. He is with you always.
I am saying prayers for you for comfort, peace, and hope; may you feel the encompassing love of Jesus. Sending love and hugs! 🙏🦋🐝🌺
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Thank you so much, Jeanne.
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God always comes when we wait patiently for him! Hallelujah!
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Amen.
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I felt this through and through. It can be a struggle when our hearts and minds aren’t connecting in the way we want. It brings comfort to know that God is there, even when He feels far away. Sending hugs your way. 🤗♥️
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Thank you so much, Bridget. ❤
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Our feelings are on the same field. Feeling somewhat hopeless lately and although I love the Lord like crazy and hold onto faith, man counseling over the past year has caused me to mourn the trauma of earlier years in my life…ptsd mocks me…the enemy laughs….but God, He will turn this for good. My word for 2023, hope. Praying for us and others who are in the same battle.
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Thank you so much, Ali. For the prayers and sharing you’re own battle.
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God is willing to come more than half way to reach you, Tina. He’ll come all the way to your heart, whatever it takes.
I’m praying, for you and with you, sister!
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Thank you so much, David.
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Sometimes our daily lives seek a quiet place, away from the helter-skelter pace. Patience helps us to allow our hearts and minds to let Jesus into our presence. Praying that you know that He is always walking with you.
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Thank you so much, Richard.
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