I thought I deleted this first poem. Why? I believed it wasn’t good enough. More so because it’s so honest. Too honest. Then I was praying one morning, and I used the words “sinking like a stone.” Immediately this poem came to my mind. I regretted deleting it, but then I remembered it was probably still in my documents trash. It seems that the Lord won’t let me scoot past this step.
Bare in mind that this was written at the end of June. These are old thoughts. Don’t worry about me. Being a bit isolated means that I wrestle with a lot of thoughts and feelings. I still believe, however, that the Lord will sort me out. There will be more honest thoughts on this later…
I’m trying hard to listen
But I really need to speak
At least I’m honest
I can’t be strong
Unless I’m weak.
Are my dreams only fiction?
You’re my reality.
I can’t see where You’re leading
But I know Your hand’s on me.
I try to stay afloat
But I keep sinking like a stone
I’m swallowed up
But I know I’m not alone.
Still I’m worn from all the waiting
Watching life go by
Fighting demons in my mind
Some days I don’t really want to try.
Then You give me another reason
But I’m still not feeling fine
No, I’m not going to lie
So I keep trying until I cry
Why is it so hard?
Why am I so weak?
Alright, Lord, there it is
It’s Your turn to speak.
June 27, 2020
Walk out on the waves
Don’t be afraid
Who is in control?
Who’s the one who saves?
Come a little closer
I promise I won’t let go
I’ll teach you
I’ll show you
Wonderful things you’ve never known.
July 1, 2020
Jesus Walks on the Water
“Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while He dismissed the crowd. After He had dismissed them, He went up on a mountainside by Himself to pray. Later that night, He was there alone, and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.
Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. When the disciples saw Him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.
But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”
“Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
“Come,” he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”
Immediately Jesus reached out His hand and caught Him. “You of little faith,” He said, “why did you doubt?”
And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. Then those who were in the boat worshiped Him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”“Matthew 14:22-33 (NIV)
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