Last Winter I really started struggling with music, particularly finding what spoke to me where I was. I felt terrible that songs that once lifted me up only made me feel worse. I’m still sifting through music looking for those songs that hit the right note. Perhaps you can relate. It’s easy to listen to some songs when you’re feeling on top of the world. When you’re struggling with depression and anxiety, however, it’s another story. Add a pandemic to the mix and those shades of grey can deepen.
Because I’ve also been feeling so burnt out It’s been a challenge to find comfort. I’ve struggled to tuck in tight to Jesus. In moments like these I’ve clung to the thought that even though I’ve been hanging on by a thread the Lord always has a tight grip on me.
“That’s right. Because I, your God, have a firm grip on you and I’m not letting go. I’m telling you, ‘Don’t panic. I’m right here to help you.'”Isaiah 41:13 (The Message)
You may know Jon from the band Switchfoot. When I came across his song “Jesus, I have my doubts” it peaked my interest. I had to have a listen.
Everyone experiences difficult terrain on their journey of faith. We get confused. We have doubts and we can begin to walk with our head down. At times I’ve looked back too much expecting what’s up ahead to be more of the same struggle. Or I’ve looked back as the Isrealites did and thought it was better when….
It’s time to let go of the pain of the past and trust both the present and the future to the one who will always help us.
All of these songs below are so worth a listen. Lauren Daigle joins Jon in the second video. Such a great song and reminder. It’s very comforting and uplifting to know that Jesus will never let us go.
“See, God will help me; the Lord will support me.”Psalm 54:4 (New Century Version)
When your fear is currency
And you feel that urgency
You want peace but there’s war in your head
Maybe that’s where life is born
When our façades are torn
Pain gives birth to the promise ahead, yeah
If you could let the pain of the past go
Of your soul
None of this is in your control
If you could only let your guard down
If you could learn to trust me somehow
I swear, that I won’t let you go
If you could only let go your doubts
If you could just believe in me now
I swear, that I won’t let you goSwitchfoot – I Won’t Let You Go