Having Hashimoto’s Disease means that my body doesn’t cooperate as I would prefer it to. It’s been this way for over a decade now.
Tuesday night I woke up only a few hours after I went to bed. When I haven’t slept well I can’t function. I can push myself, but it tends to create anxiety. Ask my husband. He knows when I’m struggling. It sounds a little like I’m doing lamaze.
I was up half the night, but I finally did get some sleep. I often feel run over in the mornings which means my day starts slow.
Wednesday was a beautiful sunny day, so I wanted to get out for a walk and enjoy it, but just taking a shower took it out of me. I ended up back in bed.
Fatigue is a very common symptom of Hashimoto’s Disease, but it’s also a symptom of many other things: hormonal changes, iron deficiency or any other vitamin deficiency, just to name a few. Therefore, it’s difficult to pinpoint the exact source for certain, and family doctors aren’t taught to find cures. They’re taught to prescribe a “bandaid.” There hasn’t been a bandaid for my fatigue.
Focusing on my health has never helped me. It’s always stressed me out. There are a billion remedies that never work.
This brings me to the problem of being in bed. I’m a thinker, so when I physically can’t function I can get very stuck in my head. This creates another problem. I can over think everything until my thoughts become anxious thoughts, which is why it’s so important to share our burdens. When we do it gives others the opportunity to build us up. At the very least just sharing releases that pressure.
I’m not always in bed, but I always have a limited amount of energy which varies from day to day, and I can have problems getting to sleep, staying asleep or staying awake. Until the last few years I was never someone who needed a nap. Now I’ll be watching t.v. with Andrew and it never fails; I can’t keep my eyes open.
I don’t know where I’m going with this, but it kept me from over thinking some deep spiritual matter. It’s just a day. Tomorrow is another day. I’m doing better mentally. I haven’t had any major meltdowns this Winter. The hardest part about my health issues has been not feeling like myself, but I’m getting there. Mentally I feel more like myself this year than I did last year. This fills me with hope that consistent joy, peace and contentment aren’t so out of reach. So I’ll continue to trust the Lord and do as Scripture teaches because it does bring rest.
Do you know why people fail to rest in the Lord? Unbelief. It takes faith to rest. That means knowing what we believe and how knowing Jesus affects our lives. This takes some study. I tend to over study, so I need to balance the scale by enjoying life more and simply meditating on the greatness of God. Some need to balance the scale by meditating on Scripture more, but even more than this we are to be doers as well. It’s not enough to hear God’s word. If we don’t put it into practice where is our faith?
Okay, so you can’t take the preacher out of Pippi, but I am learning to go lighter on the study. I’m enjoying more photography, poetry and writing “petite prose.” As I follow the Holy Spirit’s lead I’ll find that balance again eventually.
After I wrote this I couldn’t keep my eyes open. I shut down my tablet and tried to catch some Zs. As I started to drift off to dreamland I was sitting outside. (This was a dream.) Some bird walked up to me and started to bite me on the leg! I saw that open beak! I knew what was coming! My thought was, Oh great, I can’t move my legs. Now I’m going to get some bird disease. Then I woke up and my leg was tingling. On the bright side Jesus keeps me amused, inspired and gives me plenty of writing material.
And Jesus said…
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”Matthew 11:28-39
You might not find rest for your body, but you will find rest for your soul. Lol… Can I sleep now without birds biting me, please? Lol…
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